Last Saturday evening I got very sick, very fast. Since then I've been fighting some sort of cough, cold, and utterly exhausting disease. Its really hard for me to be sick because I am such an active person. Since elementary school I've been the kid that wanted recess all day long and wouldn't sit still for a haircut. I would walk around the salon literally while they cut my hair. I'm sure in some way this relates to my spiritual life. I've always experienced God through adventure. In taking risks and being in nature I have had the best days of my life. At the same time, it might be possible that my inability to rest physically relates to my inability to rest spiritually.
Its hard for me to slow down and simply BE with God. I find so much worth in what I DO, and lately God's been reminding me, to simply BE HIS. I said simply, but its anything but that for me. I get lost in finding my worth in what others think of me and how well I think I'm doing a job. I realize when people ask me how I am doing, I am have no real idea, because I haven't slowed down enough to really reflect on how I am doing personally. So I'm kinda rambling, but I'm just processing this now.
As I begin to feel my body healing, I am excited about joining LA Fitness and starting up a kick boxing class. Its funny but I started watching old episodes of Alias and I think Jennifer Garner is pretty cool. I'm also thinking about training for a sprint triathlon in Miami in April and I'm excited about getting back into swimming. At the same time I just dropped some serious G's to buy a 9.0 Channin surfboard. O my, as I type this I realize how much activity I have planned in the coming months.
My prayer is that amidst all these crazy hobbies and endeavors I would strive for balance and rest. If anyone is reading this you should ask me in a few weeks if I'm finding that balance. I could use the accountability. Hopefully I won't be too stubborn to listen. =)
Remember what we learned in youth group just last week that has been helping me this week as well. Come to me and I will give you rest.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'll see if i can keep you accountable and you can do the same thing for me. :) Love ya my sister in Christ.